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It is another busy day in the office. The company’s phone, it rings since morning. Boss is in the account department checking all the outstanding payments from clients. The accountants are tracking past accounts, following up debts with seasoned clients. The HR department is still cracking their heads on unsettled business since the day the company shifted to the new office. Things never solved. Work can never finished. Chaos. On the other hand, I am doing nothing. I am separated from my department since the day I started working. If given the permission to change, I do not wish to join my department. Not because my department is occupied by male staff, rather I was never part of the team. Manager has been wanting me to join the department but I am praying hard that I could stay where I am now.
So seated I in the office observing the busynes of these fellow staff whilst I have nothing better to do. I have been thinking. It’s been close to two months in the company yet I am still lost in term of my career path in this field, the operation of the company and why people don’t stay long in the company. Then I remember that I have a dream job to pursue. It may not end up to what I wanted at the end of the day but it is also partly depending on the opportunity given as life goes on. We’ll see. I am getting restless for not talking as much as I used to. Jobs are no longer challenging. The only good thing is that I have been exposed to a lot of new technologies. Interesting but all I need to do is to read up those technologies and conclude my findings. There is no challenging problem for me to solve. I am slacking in my performance already.
My dream job is uncertain because I am a female. What a sad truth but this is Malaysia. Women are often perceive as working in a comfortable office instead of working under the Sun. I am beginning to miss working with opposite sex because they are much more flexible. I never like girlish topic although I love to dress up like a girl. I never like shopping talks although I have a collection of dresses in my closet. Conversation just doesn’t blend in well.
I do not need any advice. I just want to be heard.